Far de SZA

How do I deal with rejection?
I'm dealing with a lot of rejection right now
It makes me feel very small
Oh, that's great, If nobody wants you, you're free

Tried to wash all my shit away
Tried to wash all my emotions
Need a few brews, need a palm tree
I be drinking in private, don't call me to party though
F- on your n- for cardio
Took a dip and he fell in love right away
I put my feelings on layaway (ah)

Done being used, done playing stupid
Done faking cool
(I don't want none of that s-, I don't want it)
Done being screwed, done feeling clueless
That's how you do
(I don't want none of that s-, got me running so)

Far, far, like I don't recognize me
Far (far), far 'cause I let you define me
I'm far, far 'cause I can't trust nobody
Far, stay far, so far

Lately, I feel less cool than before
(Nobody under my garter belt)
(Nobody outchea to tell me I'm special)
Made you check your bull- at the door
(Got an appetite hungry to feed my ego)
(Nobody 'round me to be my hero)

Always on my mind, trust is hard find
Everything reminds me of us
I just want my sanity back
Better than being your enemy
(Better than letting go, scared of that, oh)

Done being used, done playing stupid
Done being cool
(I don't want none of that s-, I ain't going)
Done getting screwed, done playing clueless
That's how you do
(I don't want none of that s-, got me running so)

Far, far, like I don't recognize me
Far, far 'cause I let you define me
I'm far, far 'cause I can't trust nobody
Far, stay far, so far

I remember when you had me upside down
Stress me out and turn me out, it's all bad now
I remember when I wasn't so burnt out
I'd rather that than be your enemy, ready to let it go

Dragging me far, far, like I don't recognize me
Far (far), far 'cause I let you define me
I'm far, far 'cause I can't trust nobody
Far, stay far, so far